where am I?

So after months of things to do, places to go, somewhere to be and stuff to see I have hit a dead end. It feels something like running right into a wall. I am at a dead stop, and I also have the symptoms one might have after running into a wall. Dazed and confused and walking around aimlessly. Yes, I have found myself in many different rooms of the house only trying to remember why I was there. Most times I figure that there is no reason at all and go back upstairs to the office, only to find myself somewhere else in another 20 mintues... oh dear. This is what has happened now that I went from go, go, go to trying to sit infront of a computer all day doing book keeping. I now remember why I left this type of work to go do other much more fun and adventurous things... I do not have the attention span for it! its a challenge.





Another scary thought is i'm starting to feel like i may have lost my rudder somewhere, feeling slightly off my mental reservation... now that may be because I haven't talked to a single person (other than mom, not saying that she doesn't count!) for the past 2 days... (wait... what day is it?) lets try that again, the last 3 days. Or it could also just be because my family tree is more like a shrub... Just kidding family! I love you all!





Normally I would be just fine with this fact if I was on the ranch with my animals, or out in the hills with the horses and stars instead of street lights and cars... (as demonstrated in picture above) BUT problem here is.... i'm not. i'm in the city and sitting in front of a computer. Atleast out there you can always say you were talking to the dog, or the horses or something... other than yourself. Its easy to have a conversation with them, they don't talk back. You know theres an issue when the jake owen pictures start talking back to me from the computer...Just Kidding! But I can only take my own dialogue for so long. Theres that old saying " Theres two theories to arguing with a woman, neither one works" It's true, and I like to emphasize the fact that when you're a woman and fighting with yourself its even worse... impossible to win... you think there'd be an advantage, knowing what the other side is going to say before they even know they're going to say it... but theres not. Just makes for a really complicated situation.

I better go stare at more numbers now, maybe I can find my mind somewhere mixed in with all the credits, debits, 0's and $ signs... ? maybe...? I will look for a secret code....
I have a feeling it will look something like this...

credit 3599.00 debit 2590.oo $#^your mind would like to return to you$39206.0004089634 but only if you finish this sequence 4358.00 + talking money...debit 25890.23 add 2905-123216549874A talking monkey? 565462@% &56521598^&#$^6+3456725<<34546/*: Talking monkey, yeah, yeah. Came here from the future, ugly sucker, only says _______

and then I will say "Ficus" to finish the sequence and my mind will return.

I know, I know you are all wondering how I know this answer... well, i'm a genious. Obviously.

anyway, until next time

i'm gone like the mind from a man who's gone insane.