So Paul has been gone to work for 7 days now. It might as well be 80 by how long ago it feels that he left. I can’t help but wonder why the fact that when you’re together time flies but when you’re apart it seems to drag on forever… It makes me think of when you’re going on a trip and you’re so excited to get there and it takes forever…. And ever and ever. But then on the way home, when it’s the exact same amount of time and you aren’t excited whatsoever to be going home, it seems to take ¼ the amount of time it took going the opposite direction. What does this mean? I don’t know. That’s just what it reminds me of…. And it sucks. :(

Cookies and Starbucks

Today was an interesting day. I had a good 11 hours sleep. Woke up, went in to the office for a little bit, worked out and then came home. All this was done in a normal happy attitude and mood. It was like there was an invisible mood changing field I walked through when I came in the front door. Suddenly life seemed far less cheery and enjoyable. It was much more dark and cloudy with a thunder storm building. More accurately would be it was as if there was a massive black cloud that blanketed as far as the eye could see, one so dark you can only sit and wait for the thunder and lightening to begin. But for some reason it never does. It stays black and moves over and surrounds and finally rains and rains and rains. So it’s gloomy and miserable. And you don’t even get a thunder and lightening show out of it. So disappointing. You feel like a child, (a heck, not even a child, I still get this feeling…) who got a new toy. This isn’t any ordinary toy, no, it’s the coolest and most fun toy there is.Its a rocket you get to launch into the sky over and over. (by the way, there is an iron man rocket that does just this. BEST TOY EVERY!) But you can only play with that toy outside, and mother nature just isn’t cooperating. You have to stay inside because there is a massive dark cloud looming. So mom says you can’t go out. You can’t go play with your new because she doesn’t want you to get electrocuted. However, after waiting and waiting and waiting there is no lightening. There is no thunder. But then it downpours. Forever. How disappointing. You sit staring out the window gloomily and for that short while it seems like life will never get better. That’s how I felt this afternoon. However, I had no reason as to why. It was sunny, it was Sunday, I had absolutely no obligation to be anywhere or do anything. Why did it suck so much??!?!?! So, I dealt with it like I always do. By removing myself from the outside world and curling up in bed with a movie. 2 hours later this didn’t solve my problem. So I went to step two. Starbucks and cookies. I dragged my ass out of the house and went and got a grande skinny soy hazelnut latte and chocolate chip cookies. Needless to say, I am now feeling decent again and I’m even writing. Now whether it was the sunshine, the movement of the short walk there, the getting out of the house or the items themselves, all I can say is … Coffee and cookies work miracles. J

i'm bbbbaaaccckkkk.... again.

So it has been a while since the last entry. Only about 2 months… I’m not even going to make a comment about falling off the wagon other than the fact that I’m a professional. My list of things that I’ve fallen away from is large… abs competition…bootcamp… daily dysfunctions… blog in general… writing… courses… health kicks…exercise… and many many more. It would appear many things are started and never finished and I know I’m not the only one who has that problem. So here I am, sitting in front of the computer once more. Hitting the rusty keyboard keys and stretching my fingers as they slowly pick up speed and fall back into their usually quick and nimble typing ways. Ok, I admit, that may be a little too embellished for the not so graceful pounding of keys that I do.

Back to more important things however, that being that I have now decided I am no longer going to give myself missions such as the examples given above. Kind of like the same idea I have about new years resolutions. Everyday is the right day to make a change or do something different. There is no reason to wait for that one day a year to make a resolution. The only catch being, I am not making resolutions. I am just going to keep working day by day one step at a time to do the things I enjoy and live my life. Without feeling bad that I haven’t blogged in a while, I’m not going to beat myself up because I lost the abs I had worked so hard for, and I will not hold it against me that I have not done all the things I said I would do. This I can accept and will take on because even though I didn’t do the things I said I would, I know I was doing much more fun, adventurous and exciting things. Things that I would have missed out on or not had the pleasure of experiencing if I was exercising as much as I was, writing all the time, and blogging every night.

There. That being said, I make no promises on when this will be updated again. If you’re that interested, just keep checking back. J and if you are that fascinated and do keep checking back, then thank you for being so enthralled with my blog. I really don’t think I’m that interesting. However, you, obviously do, or you’re obviously very bored. Either way, thank you.